God is too wise to be mistaken
God is too good to be unkind
So when you don’t understand
When you can’t see His plan
When you can’t trace His hand
Trust His heart.
(But I think it’s a song)
“My thoughts are nothing like your thoughts,” says the Lord. “And my ways are far beyond anything you could imagine. For just as the heavens are higher than the earth, so my ways are higher than your ways and my thoughts higher than your thoughts.” – Isaiah 56:8-9
All right, how to start this. I knew that I would be writing something on this, I mean it was a huge deal: world-wide, yet so close to home. Since most of you who are reading this know me and my family this will be old news to you but for the few who have clicked on my blog and are following it without knowing me here it goes. Last Saturday my brother was on a bus that was returning home from youth camp in Michigan. About a mile from the school the brakes failed as it came off the interstate ramp. The bus drive, as far as I know, swerved in a serpentine motion to slow the bus before hitting the wall at a 45 degree angle before it flipped. Four people were killed and most of the teenagers went to the hospital. Before I say anything else, I am going to say that bus driver saved the lives of teenagers. I am thankful for his quick thinking and for making the choice that he did. Anyway back to the bus crash. For anyone who read the news report my brother was the teenager in critical condition. He was thrown from the bus and ended breaking his neck. This happened a week ago today.
I have had several well meaning people say this is horrible. No. No, this is not horrible. I went to Pastor Chad’s and Courtney’s funeral today. I watched their family speak and saw their tears. I can’t pretend to know what they are going through. I mourned with them but I don’t understand their grief. This is heartbreaking but it is not horrible because when I look at this tragedy I do see pain, hurt, and grief. I also see love, faith, trust, miracles, and support. When I look at this I see God. I see Jesus. I see the Holy Spirit.And through all of this I see Jesus is enough.
I spent most of this week in the hospital with my brother. He got out Thursday evening. But he was in ICU for the weekend. I watched as the body of Christ moved. I saw people extending love, love given to them by God through the Spirit because of Jesus. I saw the hope of His people. My family and I have been so blessed, have been so very blessed. I learned what that word means. It means to be envied. My family has had to deal with my brother breaking his neck and believe me I mean this when I say it, we are to be envied. Why? Because I have never felt closer to God, I have never seen God in a more tangible way than I did this week. Believe me when I say we are blessed. We are blessed because, “My heart is confident in you, O God; my heart is confident. No wonder I can sing your praises!” –Psalm 57:7. My heart is confident. I know His love for me. I am His and He is mine. And God has been glorified through this. People from all over the world have come to accept Christ as their Lord and Savior through this. All. Over. The. World. How else could a small bus crash from Indianapolis have caught the eye of the nation and made ripples across the global, except if the world looked and saw a glimpse of Jesus? There is no other way.
Through my family suffering, through the pain that the families and this congregation has had to go through, souls saw Jesus and have been saved. The worth of one soul is worth so much more than what we have given. I praise God that we see Him through this.
I am not saying that this week wasn’t one of the most difficult that I have ever been through because it was. I was exhausted and worried. But I have hope. I have eternal life. And I know that those who died in the body are alive in the Spirit. And what is more, people around the world have come to life because of this. “Be exalted, O God, above the highest heavens! May Your glory shine over all the earth.” –Psalm 57:5. In this time. while we struggled one thing I have learned is Jesus is enough. He is enough to get us through the pain, the hurt, the worry. Jesus is enough.
The funeral I was at today was heartbreaking but uplifting, full of peace, and the knowledge that God is sovereign. God is in control. God is good. In the good times and the bad, God is good. God has honored the Chad and Courtney’s lives of faithfulness through allowing them to have an impact on the entire world, by using them to glorify Him.
This is not to say that grieving is not a real part of what is going on, and that it does not hurt because it does. To a world that can’t understand hope, that does not know Jesus, I think we just look weird but they see, in the darkness, a light. Maybe they don’t understand it and maybe they are afraid of it and reject it but they still see it. And some have run towards it and come into the light. “The light shines in the darkness, and the darkness can NEVER extinguish it.” – John 1:5. This time can be dark and in the ER when we were told that my brother had a broken neck and bleeding on the brain I can say it didn’t seem very optimistic we still held onto the light and the hope that is Jesus.
I have one more verse and then I will be done. I know this has been long but thank you for reading it. The verse is this, showing that God cares very much for our hurt and our pain. He loves us, remember and that means that our sorrow does matter. “You keep track of all my sorrows. You have collected all my tears in Your bottle. You have recorded each one in Your book.” – Psalm 56:8. God cares very much about our pain He loves us.
So in conclusion I say Be exalted through this God. My heart chooses Jesus. Through the good times and bad. Blessed be God’s name. In all of this Jesus is enough, He will be enough, He will forever be enough.
Prayers, Love, and Blessings.